Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Under the Overpass

When I received my copy of Under the Overpass, I thought it would simply be an interesting read about street life in America. Having a background in the social welfare area, I wasn't expecting too many surprises. The truth is, I was surprised. Yes, it is a book about life on the streets in America, but it goes much deeper than that. God truly had many "surprises" waiting for me in the pages of the book...and I'd bet He has them waiting there for you as well.

The journey that Mike and Sam embark on opened my eyes to what to what I have often closed my eyes to. That though I can give money and offer to serve food in a soup kitchen, I don't always fully open my heart to those I serve. I have too often remained at a "comfortable distance" and have failed to deeply connect to those I am reaching out to. All too often, we the Body of Christ, choose not to really see those struggling on the street... quickly forgetting they are people made in the very image of our Creator - just like us.

This is truly an inspiring book and I honestly believe if more people read it, God could move mountains in a harvest of people who need our love more even more than our money...who need our respect even more than food to fill their bellies.

Please read this book and be opened to change from the inside out.



**I received a copy of this book from WaterBrook Multnomah in exchange for a personal review.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Praying for others: the mark it leaves on our own hearts...

I was re-reading this post and praying for this sweet baby and her family...and thanking God for drawing close to us - I was reminded in my Bible reading this morning what a fool I often am ... and in that foolishness of thought and action the God of the Universe draws nearer to me still... and loves me so much that he willingly leans in close to take in each one of my offered prayer-words.

I called the kids to pray with me over this sweet baby. I explained that she was born a little while ago and was really sick and we needed to pray. Em's eyes filled with tears (she's so tenderhearted) and she quickly prayed for Jesus to heal this sweet baby and with heads bowed, I prayed with prayer-words a plea to Jesus and teaching words to my kiddos, that Jesus, the hear-er of all our prayers, knew exactly when this sweet baby would be welcomed into the world and he knew exactly when those breaths stopped and knows, even now, how many breaths she will take before He carries her back home.

Em broke out in full out sobs and interrupted with, "Mom, I don't like that the baby is sick. Can Jesus let her stay longer?" I said I didn't know, but that we were asking him if she could. If she can't and he wants to take her back to her home in heaven, that we were asking Jesus to comfort her parents and help them not to be sad for too long. That they would cling to the hope we have in Jesus no matter what happens...

Lord, I am overwhelmed with emotion and at a loss for words. I deeply love each of my dear children who are so willing to pray for others ...for Em's heart who is moved to tears over the pain someone is experiencing. Forgive me for not always looking closer, bending low, to see that that little girl holds one heck of a lot of love for everyone she encounters. I'm grateful to have the chance to see such a beautiful heart in her. May she always have Your heart for others, Lord. Thank you, words not enough dear Father, that by Your amazing grace,, I get to be their mama...

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Happy Birthday, Donnie!



Today this guy would be 45! Donnie, ya old fart you! He was the most hilarious guy and bestest uncle on the planet! He was also a FABULOUS Daddy to his two kiddos! He was the biggest prankster and always pullin' some crazy joke on someone. He made us all laugh till it hurt! Even with all the brain surgeries and all that goes with them, he made the doctors and nurses laugh. He still played jokes. The bestest part - He chose to see Jesus in and through it all.... and was such a witness for the kingdom. What a truly amazing guy. No doubt the angels are laughin' hysterically today, Donnie. Hope you are having a wonderful day with grandpa. I miss you guys and love you much!

Thursday, January 6, 2011

a fresh, new year

Happy New Year! Last year when I began this crazy online journal of sorts I felt it was going to be a year of big changes. It certainly was! Most of them took place in my own skin... I was stretched and grew in many areas...

So what lies ahead of 2011? While I do not yet have any details, I trust God will stretch me and grow me again this year. I pray to have a heart willing to step out of my usual routine and habits and follow hard after God in obedience - wherever that leads me. I want to have faith like Abraham...picking up and heading out even when I don't know where we're going...fully placing my confidence in my God. I know I will undoubtedly find myself in the desert at times (perhaps both literally and figuratively speaking) and will have to put one foot in front of the other and choose to see the circumstances of life through God instead of through me. I will also have times where we stand on the mountaintop together - and rest, breathing easy as I take in the site.

Yes, as with any year, God has much in store for me. I pray to live a life of meaning - a life that has an eternal impact and to lay aside all the things that so easily distract me from what He's called me to do and be here on this side of heaven. I especially pray for deeper connectedness with the people God has so graciously brought into my life... namely my hubby and my kiddos. I want to leave a rich legacy of faith when I leave this world...

I have a good friend who had me thinkin' of one word to focus on this year... I didn't read her entire blog post yet, bc I have been thinkin' of that one word for me this year and didn't want her ideas and thoughts to sway me in any one direction. She's got an awesome heart and I know I could easily be swayed instead of taking time to ask God for my own word... :)


I think heritage is a mighty fine word to focus on this year... I have really been meaning to get into more study of the Old Testament for awhile ... I am also interested in digging into my own past a bit to see what I have mistakenly brought with me that really needs to be let go of. And I'd like to seek out more and more ways to build something of great worth and value that is worth leaving to our children... a family life rich in a heritage of faith.


Hope this New Year finds you counting your blessings and maybe finding your own special word to focus on!

Lisa

Friday, December 10, 2010

have you had a day recently

Where you just couldn't get it together - whatever "it" was...

I have been feeling so caught off guard by the emotions that rise up in my chest throughout my days. I can't even put my finger on whatever "it" is that keeps coming back.

Different things can push that button... where I just can't contain the tears that hide behind my eyes... a child spills milk on a freshly washed floor and I crumble... my husband gives word of another long trip... and something deep breaks... relationships already strained are even heavier this season... and it feels long and weary...

I'm sensing the "it" in my life... and I will never get "it" together... I need Jesus. He's the only one who can put it all together... the pieces that have come unglued and unraveled. He alone can pour strength into a lifeless bunch of bones and skin.

I am needing Him this Christmas and I won't find him under a tree or wrapped in paper. I will only find the One I need at a cross... I need to go and sit with him awhile... and am needing Him to also come find me...again. I need Him to whisper to my hard heart... I am stubborn and won't always run fast back to Him - I find that so strange, needing rich peace, but choosing to shoulder a burden on my own shoulders a while longer. Why? What good does that bring?

It brings nothing. I am nothing. Jesus, could you please come find me again? I am wanting to feel your arms around me. I realize you have never let me go, but I am too hard to feel much right now. I know you know that already. Ps 139 says so... I cling to those promises I have in my head and plead for warmth that comes only from your love to feel it in my heart... I need your rich, deep love to soften my hard exterior ... to ease my mind and soften my heart and to enable me to let it all go...open hands...open heart... open life... Let your life pour into mine. Oh, I am so much in need... Come find me, Jesus... bring life and healing and wisdom and peace... Oh what sweet, sweet gifts you bring at Christmas... what love you bring, King Jesus...

Friday, November 12, 2010

Ever Present Help

So my oldest turns 6 today! I am taken back by how quickly these seemingly long moments of each day quickly become such fleeting years. I honestly need to learn better how to embrace THIS MOMENT.

God is an ever present help. I read that constantly. I must admit that I don't know if that head knowledge reaches my heart often enough these days... Day that swirl about me as I nurse my 4 week old, change the diaper on my 19 month old, fix broken toys and bruised egos of the other three kiddos... and throw in a dash of laundry, cooking and pick-up.

Ever present help in time of need...

Why do I think God can only handle my Big Stuff sometimes? Do I really believe that He's unable to care for the small detail of my day? Of course I don't. I know He's big enough, but I don't live that trust out in my day to day all of the time. I try to tackle far too much on my own strength. It turns out upside down... Either I accomplish what I set out to do and I am overcome with much pride. Or I just plain ole fail.

Ever present help in time of need...

Today my sweet girl is 6! Lord, I want to full know and trust in every detail that you are BIG enough to handle everything in my day. I need to KNOW you are ever present and offering a hand in EVERY moment so I can live that out in faith each day... It's a gift I can daily give my kiddos... I want them to KNOW early on you alone are our ever present help... You fill up this house and make it a home. You take 7 VERY different people and bring us together to make it a family. We need you. We love you.

Lord, 6 years ago today I became someone's Mommy. I was forever changed the moment she was laid in my arms. Lord, I thank you for the many blessing you have entrusted to me. I am overwhelmed with how good you are to me and the favor you have bestowed on me, an unworthy traveler. Walk with me, Lord. Thank you for being the prefect help I need in every moment in every need... big or small...

Love you.

Being Intentional

With the birth of sweet AK, came the inevitable change in our family "routine" ... So while we are in the process of adjusting, I'm implementing "Messy Mondays with Mama" and "Family Fridays" ... I'm praying God's help with this every step of the way. I am a creature of habit and without his help, this will only remain an idea.

The Rules for Mondays: #1 Have fun! Enjoy the Moments!
#2 No cleaning (except the kitchen table and floor) during the day! That
stuff can wait till the evening - it's not going anywhere... These
moments sure are!
#3 Limit the distractions: no phone, computer, tv during the day.
#4 Have fun! Enjoy the Moments!!!

*** School on Mondays will change as well. We'll be doing messy craft projects, art, etc. on Messy Mondays. We'll continue to read, but the other subjects can wait. I have wee ones around and want to enjoy these sweet blessings that God has entrusted to my care... I am certain he will continue to bless their minds and such in the way of formal education as we're seeking to be even more intentional about creating a closer togetherness with each other and Him.

Family Fridays: This will consist of our regular school day and a.m. and p.m. chore packs (thank Mrs Duggar for that lovely idea) But in the afternoon we'll make our Friday pizzas together - and we'll even make our own cheese once in awhile! They love fresh Mozzarella! Friday nights are family night where we play games or watch a family movie with popcorn and end the night with family reading time all together! This will help set the tone for our weekends - to be conscious of taking the time to really seek the moments we can as a complete family... to enjoy each other and really get to know these sweet people we do daily life with!


Dear God,
I am so unworthy and in adequate to care for these 5 small sheep. They will surely follow where I am leading, Lord. So I pray that you enable me to follow you more closely. I can't do anything on my own. I pray you will place your hand of blessing on these small ideas for creating even more closeness in our family. You know me, Father, all too well. You know I crave order in our home.... and you also know that it distracts me from my kiddos at times. I don't choose "the better" often enough - time with you and time with them... So I am asking for you to help us grow closer as as family to you and to each other - - - using whatever means you need to do that.

In Jesus' name,
Amen

Monday, November 8, 2010

Seriously?

I was with a good friend the other day and had a very surreal moment - the "how the heck did I get here?" moment of life.

Now, please don't misunderstand, I love my life. I feel tremendously blessed to have these 5 children and the life my hubby and I live with them each day. I will admit, that I have had more than a few moments lately where I throw my hands up and claim, "I give up. How did we get here?"

I feel entirely inadequate to parent and educate this handful of five tiny people. I know that God is strong where I am weak... and that he is glorified when I am made nothing. I am nothing. I can't do it all. I am only me. I have these people depending on me... and I am reminded that God wants me to depend on him the way they do on me.

I have children who aren't listening and obeying me and I am reminded how often I turn a deaf ear to my Father. Yet, my kiddos frustrate me with their unwillingness to obey. My Father is ever patient and loving toward me.

I have much to learn from my handful of tiny people... God is so good to teach me through them and in this journey of parenting.

I am nothing without him. I feel completely unworthy and incapable of the task at hand... and I wonder, "Seriously, why on earth did you bring me to this place?"

His answer is always bc I love you and want deeper relationship with you. Perhaps I needed yet another reminding of just how in-over-my-head I am with all these responsibilities that come with abundant blessing... and He was gracious enough to remind me.

Walk with me today, Jesus. I need to feel you close. I am a weary traveler on this journey and need you to carry me today. Amen.

Friday, September 17, 2010

Less than nothing

So I honestly forget that anyone else but me runs into this funny, little blog from time to time. I heard from one friend that another of our friends had to remind herself not to compare after reading one of my posts. That makes my heart sink.


So today, I just want to share how much I am so not "Super Mama" ... Ugh. Comparison. I am sooo guilty of it. It offers nothing good, but robs me of much.

That said, I want to admit something to you. This shouldn't come as any revelation...Truth be told, I have trouble just as much as the next mama does. I am a giant mess of a woman... Truly. I have days (like today) where breakfast isn't served until 9:15am and we don't get to anything remotely resembling school until later in the morning. Oh the days where everywhere I look there appears a pile of something that I "should be getting to" or a pile that hasn't been looked at in so long, I don't know why it exists. Oh, and if you could see the pile of laundry waiting to be folded in my room right this moment... I can no longer see the chair beneath its weight. Seriously, no Super Mama lives at this address. I can promise you this.

It's in these days, weeks, seasons or whatever you'll call them, that I remind myself of Charlotte Mason's quote on "Education being an atmosphere" and look to God to redeem my feeble attempts and failures. I ask for His wisdom to show me all the educational "nuggets" He has so graciously supplied me with each day... afterall, aren't these those things most worthy of sharing? His lessons?

And when I turn my heart and mind toward Him, I find my attitude changes and that I do have something to offer those around me - namely the kiddos. I have Him. When I take moments in my day to really ask Him to fill me, He offers Himself so that I may have something of value to pour out to those He has entrusted to me. Now, if only I would stop continually in my day to seek Him fully. I confess I have too many days where I am only a half-hearted follower - days where ask to be filled and then run away, consumed in the busyness of my day, not even allowing myself the time or attention that is needed to be filled...and let me tell you, it shows. You all may not see it, but believe me...this is just as much me as the parts that are revealed.

I can do nothing on my own but mess things up. I can do nothing of worth or value without God. Nada. I try though. How sad is that? I know I can do nothing of worth and value apart from God, but I am stubborn and prideful and I try. Honestly, those days are just down right ugly. I have an ugly heart and an even uglier attitude. I like to sit in on my own pity-party for all too many precious moments and literally decide not to use the gift of that day for Him. I can't say it enough, those are some UGLY days! My sinful self rages fully. I am short with my kids. I am exhausted before I begin anything and typically am so caught up in my own selfishness that I can't see past her for more than a brief moment. The day starts and ends with me and that is when I peek in the mirror at the end of that day and realize just how much I have wasted. That's when I am most often able to realize more clearly the astonishing amount of grace God has bestowed on me and I cling to the promise of a fresh start.... He makes ALL things NEW! What a promise!

I need Him. I am tryin' to grow more and more aware of how he's gifted me and how to best share those gifts with others - not to place us next to each other in comparison, but to sincerely offer help. I know I need the help of Christ through the hands of others. I need it. I would be lost without it. We need each other.

We need each other. We say it, but we don't often take each other up on it. I need you to teach me, dear sisters, through the gifts God has so richly bestowed on you. I don't have all the answers. I am not Super Mama... but I can be the very best God made me to be. I can use my gifts as fully as I am able and serve others with them. You can as well. I need you, Sister, I need you.

Let's work on building each other up... in setting aside comparison (I am SO guilty of comparing sometimes) and seek to find the good in others - to really set out to see the treasure that lies in each one of us, beyond these jars of clay...I so want only to appreciate the talents of my friends and family and see all people as the treasures God has created in them. Each person God has sent my direction is a treasure... and may there to help soften my rough edges, to call me out on a few things, or to bring their giftedness to help "round out" my little ones... Oh, girls, I need help. I need help from every direction God brings it. I am grateful for the beautiful people God has enriched my life with. I am awed by how richly he truly has blessed me in this life...

God be all the glory.

Oh, and to all my fellow mamas... please remember how beautiful you are... and just who it is you belong to - You are the daughter of the King of kings. Lift your head and your heart to Him today. He has made something spectacular in you and can't wait for you to share it with those He's placed in your path today.

hugs :)

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Finding our homeschooling groove

I have a good many friends in the area who are fellow home educators ... mostly thanks to the lovely group of women in my Tulsa Charlotte Mason group. I also have, however, many friends and family who have little to no experience with home-educating. Some have expressed interest in what exactly what we're doing for our Kindergarten year. So I'm just going to throw this post out there...

First of all, I started off last spring with plans to do the curriculum Five In A Row beginning this summer and ending in October when baby #5 is expected. Well, we started with what I had planned for the summer, only to find the girls asking for more. So, I decided rather than include some of the teaching suggestions for older kiddos that were offered in the FIAR volumes, I started would implement some of the ideas for what I wanted to begin next spring. So this is what we're currently doing:

Bible: Daily readings for the NKJ and The Child's Story Bible along with corresponding worksheets from Calvary Chapel's Children's Curriculum.

Hymn Study: We read one chapter (each week) from Hymns for a Kid's Heart Vol 1 and listen to the accompanying cd daily while we finish up with breakfast and clean up. The goal is to learn the beautiful hymns by the end of the term.

Reading/Phonics/Copywork: Since Ainsley is reading proficiently well beyond grade level, she is required to read aloud 10 minutes a day to either Eric or me. She spends plenty of time reading on her own, of course. She does daily copywork that I make up for her using the StartWrite program. I find children have a much longer attention span for doing their "best work" when it's not boring repetition. So instead of making endless "o's" and "a's", I have Ainsley working on hymns and poems for copywork. This week, for example, she's writing the words to "Holy, Holy, Holy" which is also the hymn we're working on in Hymn study.

Emmalyn has also taken to reading this summer. She's been working through Explode the Code bk 1 steadily (almost moving to book 1.5) and loves reading Animal Antics, Bob Books, Step into Reading, and Abeka early readers. We're just discovering the world of "silent e" :)

American History: We use the D'Aulaire books. Narration is only required of Ainsley, but Emmalyn is right there retelling the day's episode from the book.

For those of you who are new to the concept of narration here' s something I found that simplifies this key component in the Charlotte Mason style of homeschooling. We use a "narration jar" (an idea provided by a fellow home educator in our group) that is filled with such questions as, " Tell me what happened in order." or "Tell me 5 things you learned about ____." or "Set up a scene from the story with your blocks and dolls." or "Draw a picture of something we read today and explain it to me." Ainsley enjoys picking her own question and so narration isn't something dreadful, but something fun. This method gives a far more accurate representation of what the child has understood of the material over more common ways of testing such as fill-in-the-blank and true false questions. It also helps the child commit the material to memory. He/she decides, on their own, which pieces of information were most interesting to him/her as displayed in what she recalls. This hereby makes the lesson her own, instead of relying on a textbook author or teacher, with use of corresponding worksheets and end of chapter questions, to tell what is most important and worth remembering.

Math: I can't say enough great things about math games. Eric and I really wanted to be certain the kids gained a solid foundation in the concepts of math over rote memorization of facts as is characteristic of most American schools both public and private. So we've opted to play a lot of games from the book, Bringing Math Home: A Parent's Guide to Elementary School Math. We also use Math U See (Primer: complete set) to help teach the concepts such as time and place value. To round out our math, and mostly to keep me on track with the games and teaching, we've recently included Horizons Math K bk1 for Emmalyn and bk2 for Ainsley. I feel we have really covered the basics and established a solid foundation in math concepts using all of these things. We primarily play a game or two, do some mommy-made word problems, and a page in the workbook each day. My kiddos love, love, love math - esp my homemade word problems following math games. ;)

Science: We will begin nature study with our CM group beginning September 7th. We also plan to work on our nature journals and study at home. This year, not only will the girls draw in nature journals, but will be honing researching skills using field guides, nature study hand books and the Internet to find out more information about the subject and will work on labeling parts of their drawings. We also do experiments a couple times each month. We also really enjoy reading from the Tom Burgess books for children: namely the Animal book and the Bird book.

Art: We will be beginning Drawing with Children sometime this term. I'm really excited about this book. I know the girls will really enjoy this each week. So will I!!!

World History (Biblical history): Our plan is to begin Mystery of History in the spring with the girls. We already have vol 1 on cd in our car and enjoy listening to so many details in a Biblical timeline. I'm really excited to integrate this into our home educating!


We also include Artist/Composer study, poetry, Literature, and geography each week. This may or may not seem like a lot of material for a 5 year old Kindergardener/1st grader and her little sis. I assure you we work only on that which the girls express interest in and can handle without any frustration. Emmalyn is free to come and go as she pleases, but she has always wanted to stay. They love to tell Daddy all the things they did "in school" each day. The can't wait to finish breakfast and do their morning chores so that they can "do school". My goal is to continue to foster this love for learning and offer a broad smorgasbord of topics and subjects without hampering their natural creativity and curiosity.

Most of our days school lasts about 1.5-2 hours. If the girls wish to go longer or come back to something we were working on earlier, we go ahead and do that later in our day. We spend a lot of time playing and being outside or with friends. In the late afternoons, we gather everybody up on someone's bed for family reading time. Sometimes we each find our own nook in the room to do our own reading, but most often I find myself reading to the children from a literary classic. They constantly beg for more. It's a great way to end the day after working hard in school and playing just as hard.

I am soooo blessed to be really starting this journey with my kiddos. I pray that this leads us to establishing very close ties as a family. I pray we help build and encourage each other in our faith and educational journey. It's really been fun the last few weeks. It is an adjustment as I have had to plan a great deal more... and finding things for a 2 year old and an eighteen month old is a bit of a challenge. There is definitely a learning curve to getting it all in each day - and some days we don't. I consider a day where we learn about God throughout our day, strengthen family bonds, and have a lot of fun together is a very, very successful day.


To God be all the glory!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

daily reminder

Just wanted to post a note to myself.. that every single day spent resting in God is a "best day ever" ... it doesn't matter how many cereal bowls toppled over, spilling milk across the floor... it doesn't matter that laundry is heaping ... Go and sit with Him. Pour over his words with your kiddos. Their excitment alone in the "why's" of the creation story are enough to bring him so close he's tangible. It's the excitement in their eyes that often stirs my heart most. Thank you, Father, for always loving me in unexpected ways - in bringing me the gift of this new day... this brand new moment.

This is the best day ever... :) Thanks for reminding me.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Oh the irony

So my last post was on paying attention to important things in life... okay, so it was a soapbox for a spiel on eating well (which, I will probably always have something new to share on that anyway.) Okay. So most of you know I'm, well, somewhere around 8 months pregnant. Lately, all I want is breakfast food. Lots and lots of it. Now, it's easy to make most of the things I'm wanting... and easy to make them incredibly healthy....

But today, I had a friend make me some fantastic unhealthy ones - well, still better ingredients than most, but not exactly healthy. We had white flour waffles that actually call for bacon grease as an ingredient. We had nitrite and nitrate free bacon of which I ate 7 pieces. Yep, I didn't even tell the kids we had bacon as an option. We had fresh, crispy, homemade hashbrowns. Oh, and the bestest part... the waffles were topped with lemon curd - in all of it's creamy glory! I was in heaven. I ate like a pig. Seriously, I was so full I couldn't breathe... and I'm carrying so low, that I have never had that problem yet during this pregnancy. Yes, I ate and ate and ate more. DELISH!

So she sent it home with me... If you could see my plastered smile! Ah, I get more later. Seriously, I'm nuts over breakfast. I'm blessed to have friends offer to cook me up some craving foods... and watch my kids as I make a run for the store to restock my fruit supply. What a great day. We started out over at her home at 10:30 and stayed until 4:30. Littlest Sissy had no nap today and all the kids we delightful together. It was a cooler day in the mid 80s. What a blessed person I am always... but I was overly blessed today.

Oh, and the icing on the cake - all four of my kids fell asleep on the way home. So it was peaceful and quiet the entire ride. I made some dinner for them and they were all so tired and in need of some down time, they went to their perspective sleeping places, drawing doodle pads in hand (all four of them) and asked me to tuck them in for the evening. The time: 6:40pm. Yee Haw!!!

So I am off to clean up the kitchen and have some peace and quiet time with a book and a jetted tub. What a perfectly delightful day of goodness and blessing. Thank you, Jesus, for really smiling big on me today. I am most appreciative. ;) The single thing that would really make this day over the moon - to have my hubby walk in the door and give me a great, big hug and some snuggles. Ah, maybe in a few days, God willing!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Who knew?

Okay. So one of these days I may get around to getting my food blog up and running... we'll see. It's so interesting - today's world of food. What is even more astonishing is just how much I didn't realize until I started reading. It has knocked my socks off... I literally dread trips to regular supermarket (and now with Azure Standard I won't have to go much at all), bc I don't know if there's much in the way of food there. Honestly, there isn't much. Not real, whole food anyway. We are basically a nation of chemical consumers and genetically altered "food" junkies ... and it's no wonder we feel the way we do. The thing is, many people haven't even given it much thought.

There are lists upon lists of ingredients found and consumed by the majority of Americans that have been scientifically linked to cancer, hyperactivity, anxiety, insomnia, depression, weight gain, headaches, poor vision, balding in both men and women, hormonal problems, infertility, alzheimers, and the list goes on and on. So what do most Americans do about these health concerns? They seek healthcare providers. Who mean us no harm, but what they have to offer, typically doesn't do us as much good, or may have better effects if only we'd make changes in the way we think. And go a step further in allowing that shift in thought to permeate and change our behaviors... And I'm not only talking about foods...

We live in a culture that is so busy running here and there - we live by an overly filled schedule. I am all too guilty of this, too. And in the process, we give little thought to some very key areas of our lives... we're just too busy to add one more thing to our lists of things to think on awhile. And somewhere we get this notion that , "we're young and this is what we do in our 30s and 40s, right?" But then, what really lies in store for us in our 40s, 50s, and 60s? Are we so caught up in the "I'm here and want it now" consumer culture that we really haven't stopped to see what might be coming ahead?

Today's babyboomer generation is seeing record numbers of cancers, heart disease, etc. And the age of those effected by the same illnesses are dropping. In a study found in the Journal of Clinical Oncology (vol 27, no 17 (June 10) 2009) they are projecting a 45% increase of confirmed cancer cases in the next 30 years. And that is only one study I looked at recently. Could it be this harried lifestyle coupled with not so great exercise habits, stress-filled lives and no-thought eating habits and consumption habits (like lotions, etc.) could be causing our bodies to say - "Whoa, I can't run on this or like this anymore."

Okay. Enough soapbox chatter. All I meant to get on here to say was that I recently borrowed a cookbook entitled Nourishing Traditions. Now, I have been interested in eating well, healthy cooking, and getting back to the old way of doing things for awhile now... This book neatly packages it into one book. I think it's great for the beginner. So today, I decided that the Cream Cheese Pastries sounded good. I don't much in the way of sweets in our home. I avoid white sugar at all costs. In all seriousness, that stuff will kill ya - right along with canola oil and other vegetable oils... But I digress.

So I have been in the mood for something with cream cheese. I didn't have any on hand today.... which always gets me thinkin' how people made the item prior to it being in a consumer-happy package at the local market. Well, I learned today you can make homemade yogurt very easily and for cheap. Esp if you have a crockpot or a dehydrator. Yep, and you take that freshly made yogurt and hang it up. Mine is currently hanging from my microwave (it's a much better use of it than using it for cooking/heating anything) and once the whey has stopped dripping, you have cream cheese. With more flavor (and mine is raw milk so it has all the needed enzymes for lactose digestion and processing along with a lengthy list of minerals and vitamins) You get the added benefit of the whey (which also has a bunch of uses, I'm learning) with which you could make homemade ricotta cheese.

Who knew? My grandma probably. Man, in looking around the store, my kids' friends may one day think it novel to make chocolate chip cookies from scratch. I mean, they now make a all in one package of dump and stir) I wonder if our grandmas were disillusioned by boxed brownie and cake mixes? I'll bet they were. Hmmmnnn and we're trading all this rich tradition and know how for chemicals that are making us tired, making us obese, and making us ill...

That's some food for thought today. :)

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Can we get back into the swing of this, please?

Okay. So this whole blogging thing is funny. I don't really have time for it, but if I don't write something down, I fear I will miss these funny chronicles later. So for the record, today I learned that school in the afternoon needs to be VERY light for a 4 and 5 year old. ;)

I had given a brief, 3-second thought to doing a few school-type things with the girls this morning before leaving to meet Eric for the behind the scenes shark tour today. Then I had this funny feeling that if we didn't get there right at 10am when it opened, we'd be sunk. So I got the five of us fed and ready and in the car, grabbed some gas, and headed to the sharks! Only to wait in line and miss the tour cut off by two people. Bummer. We did thoroughly enjoy having Daddy come and see all the things we have been learning at the aquarium. It was fun. I always like having Daddy along for activities. Then we had lunch together...another fun treat we try to do together when we can. Especially during the week before Daddy leaves us for another long business trip.

So we arrived home this afternoon and my first thought was to grab the latest read-a-loud book, head for a bed to rest and read together. Then the girls started asking for school bc we hadn't done any that morning. They really wanted to do math games. I love that they love them! So I pulled out the "Weekly Schoolwork" bin, and rummaged to see what I thought we could mentally handle this late in the day. Ainsley found a few worksheets I had printed off that were a sample from a 2nd grade Math workbook. I knew that they would take major mental energy, so I mentioned waiting on them until tomorrow. Nope. Now there was a challenge on the table and she was all about setting out to see if she could beat it. Well, it did take awhile, but she completed it all on her own. I just want to say I was pretty impressed. So when I went to do something else, she said her brain hurt. I'll bet it did.

Emmalyn was eager to work on reading again, so I told Ainsley to grab a novel to read while Em and I worked through a page or two in her book. Emmalyn sailed through like nobody's business. She might be a kid who actually reads better after a morning of getting out the wiggles, whereas Ainsley and I like to start fresh and rest later on. This could make for some interesting dynamics. :) Oh, the fun!

All in all, I must say that things around here seem to run much more smoothly in the morning hours. I think most of it comes from the familiar routine we have established. Ah, the power of habit formation... I so need to re-read the Laying Down the Rails book and see what other fun things we might practice. Anyway, so I learned lots today... I learned that it's probably a good idea to stick to using the car-schooling ideas on our trips about town and to come home and spend the afternoons reading together. Ah, I love homeschooling. I really, really do.

I truly am blessed to be a mama who gets to educate her kiddos at home. It isn't always the easiest, but it is SO rewarding. I couldn't imagine life any other way - I've tried, but I can't comprehend it. Maybe that's God's doing, I have no idea. I just am grateful and humbled.

I don't think there will ever be enough words to express all that I feel about homeschooling - it's just beyond words. Perhaps until one starts the journey into exploring the world of home educating, it can't really be understood. I'm not sure. All I know is that I certainly didn't understand it before I was led to consider it for our family. It used to be so foreign. Although, I naively thought I had at least the major viewpoints figured out.... ya know, the "whys" of choices of homeschooling families. I still couldn't understand what would draw people to it in the first place. I thought they were mostly comprised of families who didn't want to be separated from their kiddos all day... or families who home educated bc they wanted to be the only major Christian influence in their kids' lives...or families who really wanted to see their kiddos grow in their knowledge. The truth is, all these things fit somewhere into the mix, but that's not the heart of it at all. Not for us. It goes SO far beyond that. It goes SO far beyond even educating... but falls more along the lines of life-training and rich family connections and moving beyond the fast pace of our culture... and, really, so far beyond these reasons. Like I said, it's just beyond words - but the feeling I have of immense gratitude and humbleness... It's tangible. Gosh, that God would lay this calling on my heart and give me all that is needed to step out in faith each day. Why would he chose to bless our family in such a way is beyond me. That He promises to take us step by step through this process, astounds me. I am nothing. I have nothing to give. He is everything.... and I get a front row seat. It's pretty incredible.... No words.

I am constantly amazed by how many blessings I have received in and through the process of our journey in beginning home education. I could have never, ever imagined walking this road even 5 years ago. I couldn't image my life any other way, today.

So among the many lessons I learn each day - from my kiddos and along side them. I am constantly reminded of how little I really know and how much of God I need moment by moment. I think that might be the richest part of the blessing - seeing in many, many details how much I am in need of God and His grace and guidance to get through each day.

Yep, I learned much today... I love my life. I love my hubby and family. I love homeschooling...and I really need to work school into the fabric of our morning routine if possible, but also that flexibility in all of life is a skill and a gift - one that needs embracing regularly.

So, all in all, it proved to me another successful family home educating day...

and we even got in Math and Reading even. :)

Off to read our read-a-loud to my giggling gulls in the other room. I love hearing their laughter. It truly makes me grateful to be their mama... living a full life - with lots of laughter. :)

Hope your day is filled with the awesomeness of God and His amazing grace and goodness...

Lisa

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Maybe I can get back to journaling a bit of our homeschooling again...

Okay. So things have been WAY crazy around here the last few months... and while we're still crazy with all that is happening, I've decided that it's easier to get back to a more "normal" day - and get into the habit of school a bit more.

Now, the Charlotte Mason philosophy suggests kiddos don't officially begin educating before age 6 or 7 - meaning they don't begin with such things as narration. Now, we all know kids come in all shapes and sizes. Learning styles and what they show readiness for, of course, all vary as well. So, we recently started with narration of various types with Ainsley. It's definitely is a skill to be learned and a great life skill to possess...but I digress.

So with that said, we started "back to school" which is such a funny notion for me at these tender preschool years. The last three weeks have been more "formal" than anything we have done so far. I mean, I really only did anything that was formally planned for about 2 months last fall! Even still, these more formal weeks still wouldn't much resemble anything you'd find in a traditional classroom. Well, maybe the fact that we gather around our kitchen table for part of it, perhaps.

For us, learning time has been averaging about an hour a day. I'm just going to go through what we have been doing so I can look back and chuckle as we make changes and things progress... If anyone else ever reads this, you just get the bonus or boredom of hearing what we have been up to lately...

We begin our time with reading straight from the Bible and chatting on it awhile. My favorite is listening to the prayers of my kiddos as they ask God to help them with the lessons we've listened to and how we might apply them to the day. Some of the applications the kids come up with are hilarious! This sets the tone for all that comes next.

After Bible, we read from one of our FIAR books. Not everyday, bc the girls know the story and basically tell it back to me without even hearing it again. Which lets me know they really know it. They often share new insight into various lessons or new ideas that pop up from just seeing the book again. If we read a book, we often do a short activity that relates to the story... depending on the day, it would cover geography, language arts, science, math or art.

Following any FIAR discussion or activity, Ainsley works on copywork that I have taken from a portion of a hymn. I used to take the StartWrite program every once in a blue moon and have her do her name and some numbers and some letters. How boring is that??? Who wants to spend time making ten "t's" - certainly not me! I have found that she is delighted to see what the next part of the hymn will be for that day. She's seeing news words such as "ransomed" and "reconciled" and it has provided a great springboard for some discussion on meanings of new words. She loves it. Often, she asks to start with this before anything else. I've found she really works to do her very best for the ENTIRE time she's working, because she doesn't become bored with the endless repetition of something that, to her anyway, seems to possess no practical application. While she works on that, Emmalyn and I have started work on reading. She's reading the beginning Bob Books (which are probably twaddle, but she feels successful and that's what I'm going for!) and some of the early readers from Abeka. I didn't do any phonics with Ainsley, but picked up an Explode the Code book 1 for Emmalyn. She loves reading the exercises and she likes the idea of having her own "school book" so we do a page or two in that together. I think it is beneficial bc of how quickly Ainsley took to reading. This gives Em a chance to have her own thing with me and she thrives with that. It takes the competition out of it and for my very competitive child, this is a great thing!

So that takes about ten to fifteen minutes or so. Then we move on to Early American History or Science.We alternate days unless the kids ask to read from both books. We are currently reading and narrating episodes from either the D' Aulaire book on George Washington or The Burgess Animal Book for Children. The kids love it! They were enthralled with the fact that a woodchuck (Marmota monax) is a member of the Squirrel family. It's great to curl up on the couch to read from these books...the girls continue to amaze me with their ability to recall what we have read from past days and also share their excitement and insight on what we read that day together.

We usually end with Math. I use a couple of things: Math U See and MEP and mostly just a whole lot of games from a Math Game book for elementary kids. This week we started with beginning place value concepts. Ainsley has been building numbers through 35, but wants badly to build up to 100. I told her we have to get really good at this part first. It's a fun way to make this concept easier to grasp. It's also a game that reinforces one to one correspondence in counting and a great deal of the other basic skills. The other game we just started has them using manipulatives (noodles, acorns, puff balls) to add and subtract numbers which is reinforcing their addition and subtraction of numbers 0-9 but also branching into the two-digit numbers as well. It's nice to see them starting to do math in their heads as we continue to practice in these concepts in a fun, game-playing manner.

So that's about it. We read from one chapter book in the afternoons - not everyday, but many. We also have one going for evening reads... Many times, Ainsley takes the one we haven't done together yet, and goes off to read it on her own. I am really having trouble keeping her in good chapter books....and we have quite a few around here. I feel like I am constantly running to bibliomania for some new books for her....which I am not at all complaining about!

Just for my own need to recall where we were at such and such time, Ainsley has read Beezus and Ramona (not a living book, but fun anyway) and Farmer Boy, in their entirety, this week. She also has read large segments from In Grandma's Attic and one of the American Girl doll books. She would bring a book everywhere she goes if we'd allow it. She plays tons (often reinacting parts from the Bible or books she's read or reading) but often I'll find her riding her bike with a book under her arm or playing play dough with a book tucked under her seat. After awhile Il'l find her laying in the grass or on the floor reading. Now, we aren't ones to squash her love of reading, but we do curb it a great deal most weeks. She'd have her head buried in a book for hours and hours every single day (and she's known to take her head lamp into her closet to secretly read after we have put her to bed). I do ask that she comes back to tell me about her favorite parts of the books she's reading. She could rattle on and on for hours about various portions of the books. I try to keep it light bc it's pleasure reading, but I want to be sure she's gaining skill in comprehension - which I guess is silly, she wouldn't read it if she wasn't understanding and comprehending it. Anyway, I hope that passion for reading never leaves her.

So that's what "school" has been shaping up to be so far. Sounds far more involved than it actually is. We love it. The kids beg for it. The other moments of the day are spent hearing them laugh and use their imaginations in play (and fight and pull hair and hit) and they are often collecting tons of crazy stuff outside to draw or paint in their nature journals. They are all out and about - pulling out crayons and paper or using puzzle pieces as "food" for picnics.

Oh, I almost forgot... This week, we chatted about watercolor medium and the kiddos painted for a good while. I had them paint something from at least one of the books we were reading. The rest of the time was spent painting rainbows and butterflies and flowers. We also did artist study for about 10 minutes one morning at breakfast. I have some prints of Jan Vermeer up on clipboards near the table, so we shared some funny conversation (little kiddos have some amazing thoughts about art pieces in my house!) together. I share a few tidbits on what I read about the artist that struck me just as some added FYI material.

Yep, that's what we did... and well, this week we didn't do anything but read a loud on Tuesday and only spent 40 minutes on Wed. We're not hard and fast about this. I just like having things planned out so that we can utilize our time and move with ease through the day - esp when it's hot and being so pregnant, I don't much want to be outdoors. I have been trying to do something in the realm of "school" daily. Just to get myself in practice for more work/structure/subject matter next spring as we continue to move into more and more areas of learning. It's truly relaxing and has offered much in the way of interesting dialog between my wee ones and me.

Now, I'm primarily working with Ainsley with all of this, Emmalyn just comes to do what she is interested in. Micah comes and goes - he's mostly in for the Math games - but we spend time counting something or another together. The boy doesn't get a bit about colors... but no worries, he's either color blind or it just hasn't come together. It will eventually. I don't push. If any of my kids aren't feeling like doing what I have planned. They are still very young and I don't push it. We just find something in the bin they might be interested in. Once we start on that, I like to work at increased attention span, but if I sense we're on the verge of losing interest, we move on or end.

So this is a post mostly for my own benefit. I'd like to look back and see where we've gone from here...

I did make some scratch pumpkin bread this week using a friend's pumpkins. I also made approx 10 gallons of beef stock for use in my marathon cooking adventures that will come next week - I hope! I think Sat will be the day for roasting 8 chickens... and then Monday will be fixing chicken stock from the leftover bones. So by the following weekend, I'll have much done. With hubby traveling in and out and all around, I have to be far more prepared than I have ever been in the past. Mostly bc I'll have the 4 peanuts around while I try to get this process underway. It's also more work this time, bc this will be my biggest cooking event yet. Meaning, I'm cooking more meals this time than I have tried before. I just don't feel like cooking when it's hot. It's only getting hotter. I also don't like to cook at the end of my pregnancy. So I don't want to cook come Sept. That leaves me with cooking now.

So, maybe it won't be so long till I post again. Maybe I'll include some photos of the giant cook-a-thon after my Azure Standard order comes in! I have my second freezer all ready to go. Who would have thought I'd be where I am today - homeschooling goodness, freezer giddiness, and all my little helpers under age 6? Certainly not me... but I seriously couldn't be happier or feel more blessed than I do right now.

Thank you, Jesus.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Sunrise of your Smile

I first heard this song when I was sick back in high school and early college... I remember tryin' to tell my mom about it because the words had really touched me. Anyway, months, maybe even a year passed, when she found the Scribbling in the Sand album by Michael Card. I remember she had left it for me with a blank sticky note that had nothing but a smiley face on it... my mom always used to put a smiley face on her notes... and even still, almost always does...

Well, I was just cleaning out a drawer in the office and found it... and thought it might be a good one to post simply for my own benefit... :)


If only hugs could stretch miles...maybe life wouldn't feel so disconnected...

Holding on to the only One I can...

when only God knows...

Have you ever felt that no many how many words you spill forth, no one understands where you're comin' from? That's how I feel most days lately...

So maybe I'll find some truth in myself that resonates with the words of song... and feel understood...

So thankful that God understands me even when I can't find words enough to bring understanding...this world can sure be a lonely place sometimes...

Monday, May 17, 2010

a year of changes... a year of letting go

Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing the monkey bars... You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.
Author unknown.


Well, I said it was going to be a year of great changes. I never would believe they would involve the things and people they have...


Most surprising has been the truth of relationship revealed by the mirror of crisis.


It leaves me wondering what God has in store for me and for our family of six...

All around me the foundations of relationship shift and change like sand...revealing the truth of their facade ...
I'm so grateful to cling to the knowledge that God's truth stands firm... God is unchanging.


Things may never be the same from this point on. I'm finding it nearly impossible to believe they could...


May we follow God's plan for our lives come what may... and may my heart be at rest with the lasting impact of all that has transpired. It has never been within my reach to change or influence all that life has unfolded before me...especially within the last four weeks...

and so,


I must let go.


Letting go isn't always easy, especially if it's unexpected...


I can only trust God as He leads our family of six through these changes and may we fully greet this new life and embrace Him fully in this brand new beginning...






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