Ever Present Help

So my oldest turns 6 today! I am taken back by how quickly these seemingly long moments of each day quickly become such fleeting years. I honestly need to learn better how to embrace THIS MOMENT.

God is an ever present help. I read that constantly. I must admit that I don't know if that head knowledge reaches my heart often enough these days... Day that swirl about me as I nurse my 4 week old, change the diaper on my 19 month old, fix broken toys and bruised egos of the other three kiddos... and throw in a dash of laundry, cooking and pick-up.

Ever present help in time of need...

Why do I think God can only handle my Big Stuff sometimes? Do I really believe that He's unable to care for the small detail of my day? Of course I don't. I know He's big enough, but I don't live that trust out in my day to day all of the time. I try to tackle far too much on my own strength. It turns out upside down... Either I accomplish what I set out to do and I am overcome with much pride. Or I just plain ole fail.

Ever present help in time of need...

Today my sweet girl is 6! Lord, I want to full know and trust in every detail that you are BIG enough to handle everything in my day. I need to KNOW you are ever present and offering a hand in EVERY moment so I can live that out in faith each day... It's a gift I can daily give my kiddos... I want them to KNOW early on you alone are our ever present help... You fill up this house and make it a home. You take 7 VERY different people and bring us together to make it a family. We need you. We love you.

Lord, 6 years ago today I became someone's Mommy. I was forever changed the moment she was laid in my arms. Lord, I thank you for the many blessing you have entrusted to me. I am overwhelmed with how good you are to me and the favor you have bestowed on me, an unworthy traveler. Walk with me, Lord. Thank you for being the prefect help I need in every moment in every need... big or small...

Love you.